A sudden thought

Don't offer me too high a dose of connection
lest I so expected
lest I get addicted
That delicate sense of distance
gives security its essense.

Don't leave me desperate for connections
feed me well to keep
my positive attitude
my enjoyable solitude
only now and then, I'd be most content.

If illusions of hope are sufficient
that I truly believe I can
sustain my lukewarm existence
to the very end