Roller Coaster

For an emotional person like me, this is definitely very true.

There are always moments when I feel like I'm on the edge.
Like I feel as if, one step further and I'll be out of control,
that I'll fall into the world down under when all my life here would be out of reach,
when beauty and freedom of life would seem like a shattered illusion,
and I would live as if all the good is nothing more than a dream.
I'd look up into the sky to find the charming colours
while being extremely aware of the fact
that I'm trapped in the abyss of darkness

Yet I remember from that single invicible moment when I felt so touched
by people who love me, support me and encouraged me
I secretly promised myself that I will never fall back again
into that whirlpool of never-ending pessimistic thoughts -
for I feel that life can be so good
and it is the brighter side of it that I shall never forget;
I said to myself that I should take the energy from there and live a good life.

Well yes. I have to keep reminding myself.
I wonder why I need so many reminders to talk myself into believing that I can live a good life, but it is ever so easy to convince myself to believing in anything else.